The Warning

This is a warning to you out there who showed my parents my blog and my facebook profile and give negative comments about me to my parents. Dont let me know who you are alright. Mind your own business. Stop being so lifeless dude. Get a damn LIFE! Im sorry for being rude alright but you guys really did hit a nerve of mine.

ps,get a life!

XOXO,

Giselle :)

A Story

This is a story of my friend who just came back from Pangkor too :) Names cant be mentioned. LOOL. Sowie cause I dont think thats very nice but she do allowed me to post about it. This is how it goes.

''I just came back from Pangkor,you too right. Hmm,something unexpected happened lah dear. Do you know that I was drunk for 2 nights and when I opened up my eyes,it was the same guy who's lying next to me,but nothing happened between us. You know whats the thing lah. LOOL. I thought that he cares lah dear,I've fallen for him. I thought that I can actually trust him. I dont know lah babe,I dont know what's on his mind. His kiss was so special. He told me that he loves me. He asked can we be couple because there's this love feeling,but I was so confused at that moment. Then the very next morning,he can acted like nothing happened between us at all. How does he do that. I wonder how. Maybe he told me that he loves me its just because of lust and not love. I dont know dear. This is why I called you. I thought that everything was fine. Everything feels so alright that night babe but now No. I felt like I've been played. Again. He sounded so confident,he sounded so convincing when he told me ''I love you''. His kiss,his hug,his touch,his voice made me feel so safe. Guess everything to him is just lust. Im stucked once again. Its obvious that he doenst even like me. Guess I shall leave everything behind''

Go tune on the song ''Last Christmas'' by Ashley Tisdale and you guys will actually know how does it feels like.

This is what she told me,never trust anyone so easily dear.

Pangkor trip was awesome :D Photos will be uploaded soon!

ps,cheer up babe,thats not love alright.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Faith..

I'll be waiting patiently for that day to come. That's a promise to us and to myself. This shows the deepness of my love to you. Times and times you've let me down,times and times I've ruined everything,still I choose to believe. So shall we start a new relationship all over again? & just let the past be the past and start all over again,perhaps? Maybe we just need time to break off the thick wall between us and realised that we were actually just standing next to each other all these while...

ps,I dont care how tired and sick I'll be cause I believe in us.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

You Cant Win 'Em All

I didnt say that okie.X) The Girls :DShe won the best transformation award :D

Our Sexy Pose. X)

They're AWESOME! Support them alright!

Finally get to know how prom night feels like. What a night for me! Annice just left,Kenn cried,Ziyan cried & once I walked into the ballroom I saw something I dont want to see. It's too late for me to revive things. I was actually sobbing at the stairs until I heard someone called for my name. I was the nominist for the prom queen. Shocking huh. I was questioned 'which boy in CHS that I would love to go on a date on a sexy day?'' The first person that came in mind was you! I wanted to tell the whole world that how badly I want you,but my fear hold me back. I was too afraid that you might reject me. My fear made me lose you forever. Im so farking regret right now. If I could trade prom queen for you,I would definately do that,but everything was too late. You've changed & it hurts me so much to witness you changed with my eyes. Frankly,I wasnt happy being as the prom queen. I know myself that the crown doesnt belong to a loser like me. Still part of me was happy lah. LOOL. The crown made me lose the one that I love forever. Oh well,you cant win them all. More pictures will be uploaded soon. Congrats to Ziyan for winning the best transformation award. The prom committees did a extremely great job :D So this is the end of high school life...

To all my dearest friends who supported me,
Babes,I adore you guys very much. Thanks for being there whenever Im in need. Thanks for losing your voice just for me. Thanks for voting me. If it wasnt for you guys,I wont be here. I really do appreciate every single thing and word that you guys've done and told me. You guys mean the world to me. Soon,everyone of us will be taking different path of our lives =/ I hope that we still get to meet each other often and our friendship will still remain the same. I love you guys. Seriously! I wont forget every single one of you. Now,its your turn to call me whenever you are a sober. My love for you is more than words. Im sorry if Im mean at times,I know Im a nasty person. Please forgive me & please just tell me straight in my face whenever I've done things that upset you guys. So that I could change to a better person and a friend to you guys. Im sorry if I sucks in expressing my feelings,all I know is that I love you guys very very much! Kenn,cheer up alright. Annice,Ill b missing you=/ Gave a rose to Matau D for being such a great friend :D The family big hug was awesome and it was the warmest hug that I ever had! Guys thanks for letting me whats the true defination for friendship and warm hug :)

ps,taking few days off from all these craps. Leave me a msg & Ill respond asap.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Im Such A Failure

I failed in playing the role as a lover

I failed in playing the role as a friend

I failed in playing the role as a daughter

I failed in playing the role as a 17th years old girl

I failed in playing the role as MYSELFF!

I absolutely succed in playing the role as the BROKEN-HEARTED GIRL!

Everything about us ends tonight. This is what you want. Guess I just have to face the fact and move on. Sighh. Im such a failure lah. Screw life! Screw love! Screw me! Screw everything that pains and hurts me deeply.

I prayed and hoped everyday for you to come back to me,

You are in my mind all day and night,

We used to shine,used to be above the world,

But now everything is just falling apart,

You're no longer there for me,

Should I just walk away or stay to hope?

Im torn into 2 because of you.

Im falling fast far down.

Come back to me?

Hung out with Goldie,Jingyi,Brain and Mr.crabbie.

ps,shall protect my heart with a hard shield and never let anyone enter ever again.

XOXO,

Giselle =/

Arghh. Let me count,less than 3 more days to prom. & yes here I am,not prepared at all. I haven even get my clutch,my heels,my everything except for my dress. My dress is still with the taylor. I hope its done. Ishh! PEOPLE,the reason that Im blogging right now is because I was hoping you guys to vote for Tan Pei Yoong as the prom king of the year :D Thank you. Lovess! && I just viewed the video of me,Matau & Ann practicing for our graduation day couple months ago. Awh.

I was thinking about what my dad had just ask me. & I really do think it's a great chance for me to like explore this whole damn world and to kick off as a great start of my life. Gotta convince my mom. She's not that happy with that idea. She was moody throughout the dinner once my dad mentioned things like that. Mummy,I know you care a lot about me,I know you love me very much,but sometimes tying your daughter to you all the time is not a good thing. Hope you'll sometimes at least let me go? I will have to leave sooner or later. Just trust me? You know I'll be sad leaving you too,but people sometimes just gotta learn how to let go. The reason I want to leave is because of you and I want to escape from all of these tears,heartache,complications... Of course part of me would want me to stay because of you and my friends. What if I really leave,it will be all of a sudden and it'll be very soon. I guess. Oh well,I dont know yet eh. Will see how things flow.

ps,to leave or to stay?

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Over You? Not.

You Used To Love Me Wearing This =/Malu Pulak x) Adored by CSP Lots <3My Ugly Face!Finally Lyann and I get to hang out together! It's been ages since we last hung out. We went to the curve today. Had our so-called-lunch at peddington pancake house. OMGG! Having your meal there is like having a fabulous meal at heaven. Haha! Seriously you guys their desserts there are goddamn delicious. You can just drool by looking at their menu. Went for a walk around the curve && we watched Ninja Assassin. It's a not bad movie,I supposed yet its very very violent and gross and scary! You can see blood splashing every 10 mins in the movie. Eww. The cinema was on fire due to Rain for being too hot. His body OMG!! HOT HOT HOT! Later night went to starbucks with my smoker cousin brother. LOL. He's going to Aussie next year. Awh. Will miss him. LOL.

It's been 3 years 11 months babe. I guess. I know you dont give a damn about it already but I dont know why I still can't forget this date. I dont know. The past still haunts me until today. I can hardly sleep well everynight. What can I do to reverse the time? What can I do to photoshop our past? You've changed my dear,even you know that. I dont know what else to say. You seem to be so happy with your new life,you have what you always wanted now but Im not one of the things that you always wished for. Im happy to see you happy. Thats all I asked for right now. Happy anniversary? If there's a chance for you to seek what's hidden beneath my heart,you'll cry because my heart is full of you. If there's a chance for me to seek what's hidden beneath your heart,I'll respond the same way too because not even a footprint of mine is left inside your heart. Still I want to tell you that I love you & I dont want to be alone.

Shall find you in piggie land eh Brian? LOL. SLyann,cant wait for our next outing. give ♥

ps,I wish Im dead by now.

XOXO,

Giselle =/

Mr.Crabbie,Jing Yi,Sexy old days..<3
Saving For The Burning Ceremony !Finally get to discard all my reference books! Haha! Piles and piles of books were stacked highly. LOL. I've found back lots of memories. The old days.. Oh well,thats all in the past already. Shall force myself to stop recalling all the pasts. What is done is done. Sighh* Oh well,I hung out with Sexy Brain,Mr.Carbbie and Miss tall JingYi today. Went to one u. OMGG! That Mulan movie is freaking goddamn sad!! Its just so I dont know. Touching perhaps? This is my first time bursting into tears while watching movie. Damn humiliating. LOL. Jingyi is tall by the way. I was the shortest person of the night=/ Now I know how does it feels like to be short. WTH. No offence. Just kidding only okay! The fried rice that I had was disgusting. Im not kidding. Im cereal x) Surprisingly my mom didnt screw me or anything when I got home. I was late. LOL. Thank god. She didnt even call me. Guess what. Goldie came and stalked me in the middle of the night. LOL. Sort of. I was standing by the window of my room and he's just waiting outside my window in his car. Haha! I studied CHINESE by the way :D I am so proud of myself but I ended up camwhoring myself. Haha! I thinked I had fun tonight. LOL. give ♥- Mr.Crabbie who allowed me to pinch him throughout the movie & Brain for telling lame jokes & Jingyi for nice meeting you & Goldie for being too takhan. XD Kiding lah! && please double-checked if you receive any calls when you are sleeping cause you might received video calls. wth. x)

Goodbye my almost lover,goodbye my hopeless dreams. Im trying not to think about you. Im happy for you.

ps,congrats for having a new girl in your life.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Drunked At Noon,maybe?

Adore You Guys :D Happy birthday Mat. I have faith that your relationship with your baby will last forever :D

Finally left with only chinese paper. Hung out with Crystal,Tamtam & Kenn again. We actually planned to go to the curve then dinner at alexis,bangsar. Guess what. Plan failed. I must admit mostly its because of me :/ Im really sorry guys. Never again will I go to the curve again! Especially red box. Damn M-A-L-U! I puked at the red box once and outside cineleasure another time. I can see the rice,fish eggs,fish & chips everything together. LOL. EWWW. I did something really dumb today :/ I just wanna thank you guys for taking care of me,I know it's not easy to take care a drunk bitch,especially me. LOL. I learnt my lesson by the way. First,always let your friends confiscate your cell before you're drunk. Secondly,never sing when you are about to get drunk cause it sounds really awful. Thirdly,find a better place to puke. Fourth,dont friggin drink when you're emo. Fifth,never ever eat sushi when you're still feeling hungover. Sixth,never sneak liquor into redbox! Went to Kenn's house and slept for kinda long. LOL. I'm sowie I didnt know that my dad's already reaching :/ And plss dont stay mad at me. BOOM BOOM POW!

Guess what,I've missed my good pal,mat's 17th. Im really sorry dude. Happy sweet 17th alright. Thanks for being there everytime Im in need. You are the one who's giving me good advices and guiding me back to my life. You always told me that there's more to life,and yea. I guess you are right babe. Seriously,you've been a very very great friend of mine,and Im really happy to know you. Althought we knew each other since we're like 10 or 11,but we never talked until the day we grew closer which is when we're 15? I guess. Haha! Anyways,must always call me whenever you are feeling free,sad,down,miserable,happy,drunk? LOL. Just dial my number whenever you are looking for someone to listen to your brags or whatever lah. Haha! Last but not least,thanks once again for everything,if it's not because of you,I bet I will still be stucked and still feeling so dead everynight. Happy 17th birthday MATAU D! Im happy to see you finally found the right girl :D Love you much. Friends forever!

ps,should I go to prom?

XOXO,

Giselle :)