Stupid teacher's going to barred me and my bimbotic classmate, Melissa from our test :( G-A-H,why is she so mean. Is anyone out there nice enough to borrow us his dick during her class?

My dearest poor bubble got herself into an accident today :( I was so shocked when she called me, sobbing over the phone, telling me how afraid she was. Paoo, sowie if I got there late. You should know how much Mel and me love youu. Hehe! We were so glad that you are fine. Please don't drive manual anymore kayh! >

Sexy TPY,sowie I couldnt make it to your birthday dinner. I would love to attend but I've got moral assignments to finish. Happy birthday btw. Im really glad to know such a friend like you. You're always there whenever I need a friend to brag to :D Hehe! We shall celebrate together again soon kay. I love you! :D You're like my gay partner :p

Now you are the another thing that makes me paranoid.

I don't know what's wrong with me, & I dont want to know.
The more I know the more confused and messed up I'll be.
Everywhere I see, I see you.

You've no clue,no idea what's on my mind,
or maybe you know & you just pretend all the time.
Sometimes I even plan out what to say to you.
I think about you day after day.

I even remember the first time staring into your eyes,
& getting lost.
Million of sighs I've made after falling for you.
Yet I never once blame you.

I'm going to bed now, please appear in my dream,
because only in dreams, you know how I felt and you felt the same way too.
I wish I would just die in my dream, forever,
Having you next to me, forever.

ps,if only you feel the same way too.

XOXO,

Giselle :(

Goodbye Cookie

Today a new adventure is starting for you my dear cookie,

I'd like to wish you all the best and all the luck I can give,

I know we'll get to meet again soon,I know.

Yes,I'm sad because you're part of me,

& now you're gone,everything'll be so different.

Since the first time I saw you,

I knew then you'd be my friend,my little brother.

You're miles away & I still think of you,

You'll always be deep in my heart.

May the sun rise up and meet you,

May the wind blew upon your furs,

May the stars shine upon your cheeks,

Everyday of your life.

I love you cookie,hope you're happy with the new owner.

Ill never forget you,same goes to your little family,

Diamond,Cherrie & Spongebob.

ps,the world is round and the place may seem the end maybe the beginning for you.

XOXO,

giselle :(

I Look At You,You Look At Her.

Lying on my bed,helding my phone in my palm,

Wishing that it would just vibrate,saying one text message received,

But the more I wish,the more my phone remain silent.

What a mystery love this is,I thought I learned my lesson,

But I was wrong,so here am I again,

Noting down feelings that I must hide from him,

I wonder all day and night long,what does it means?

What does it means if he calls me everynight?

Nothing,he just wants to talk.

I wonder all day and night long,what does it means?

What does it means if he makes me laugh,

Nothing,I laugh because I'm happy whenever I'm around him.

Your presence consumes me,

I hold on to every single word you said,did you?

Your face,your smile,your voice.

I understand & I know,

reluctantly forcing myself to get over you,but failed.

Maybe everything its just merely lust.

I wonder again,what if you feel the same way too.

What if there's some chemistry between us,

Oh well,only in my dream,forever.

My dearest soul sister,Sue Zen,cheer up alright :) Your days will shine soon,I promise. Im always here to emo with youu :( Love youu.

ps,you're amazing just the way you are.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Once Upon A Time.

Forever baby,our love will never die.

Would you please dont say a word yet and listen to my heart,

Would you please think back the time we first met,

The laughter we shared, the way you felt about me,

You really care once upon a time.

Would you please think the way you treated me now and how much i cried,

But please seal your lips first,I never ever lied,

Can you see my heart breaking into bits by bits,

You hate yourself when you see my cry once upon a time.

Would you please look at our position now and how much I've tried,

The pain was so deep,unbearable and painful,

Still I choose to keep to myself all these while,

You always want to know whats in my heart once upon a time.

You are always playing a special role in my heart,now and forever,

A part of my life that break my heart,and the one I choose not to hate,

You gave me memories that I will never ever forget,

You never forget about every single word I said once upon a time.

You are always my true love,now and forever,

You and I have something special that will never ever change,I know,

Because I love you and loving someone seems strange somehow.

You love me forever once upon a time.

Would you think Im being a little too foolish sometimes,

I hate you because I can't erase our memories,

But I dare not complain because Im afraid that you would walk away,

Still it pains me to say that We'll be together till the end,

You never leave me once upon a time.

Would you please not say a word,just listen to our hearts whisper,

We said forever,once upon a time,

& We'll live happily ever after because I have faith in US.

This is what you used to tell me once upon time:'' dear,close your eyes and imagine that we are sitting on a bench in the garden,hands in hands,watching the most beautiful sunset ever,and two of our kids running around with cookie,our chaochao dog.If our kid happen to be a boy,he'll be a basketball player and Ill train him. If our kid happen to be a girl,you'll have to teach her piano my dear.I love you sweetie,forever and ever,you and only you,please don't leave me''

Never once I forget that. I love you.

ps,maybe our relationship isnt as crazy as it seems && happy 4 years and 7 months anniversary dear. Look how far we've come.

XOXO,

Giselle :(

Here We Go Again

Im falling fast down. I dont think if I can stay in this relationship anymore. Times and times I've been giving ways to you,yet times and times you broke me heart again and again. Im trying my very best. You want me to be this and that,and I thought you should love me for who I am ? Why cant you change? Why can't you make me more visible to you ?Why can't you respect me ? Why can't you appreciate me more ? Why can't you treat me better? Why can't you understand my feelings ? Why can't you just TRY! People,can I know if do you know any dumbfuck who let her boyfriend call her ugly and fat,screw her in the public,always lie to her && the best part is the dumbfuck enjoy being surrounded by all the lies,doesn't acknowledge her in front of his friends,the boyfriend always have plenty of money to go buy alcohol,treat other girls drinks and eat at fancy restaurant but when he's with the dumbfuck he'll keep complaining that she uses too much of his money and doesnt bring her anywhere not to mention fancy k,somewhere nice? He used to do everything for me,bring me everywhere my heart desire to go,but now all I can see is a guy who doesnt really gave much thought about me,wait. He doesnt even give any shits! Sigh* I really want to give up on this relationship,Im tired and sick. My heart is already in thousand pieces. But I dont want to go through the grueling stage again. I wish Im numb but Im not. I was just hoping if you at least care about my feelings,I dont know how to tell you all these,cause whenever I tried to tell you something you'll started screwing,asking why I brag so much. & Nowadays whenever I asked him a simple question he'll start to show his temper and get irritated easily. C'mon la. If someone asked where you go just tell that fella la. Over-react for farks ah. Maybe I should just leave ? Or wait for a miracle to happen ? Could really use a wish right now && if only the wish will come true. I miss you. The old you who loves me like noone else. The you that never ever bear to see me cry. The you who'll shed a tear for me. The you... && most of things that I love about are not there anymore.

Tunin' on Love the way you lie. My heart bleeds.

Ps,torn into 2.

XOXO,

Giselle

I'm back YOOOO! (: Finally study break is just around the corner && guess what Im going for driving test on May4thh! Yahoooo! After I get ma license,I promise to fetch these people around : Sue Lyanna x) Yeeting & Her hubby The best college buddy : Bubble & Mel Mel The Awesome High school friends that I miss badly : VeKenn & TamTam The Sexiest Lais on earth : Ziyan & Annice & Amanda & Denise Of course the PANGKOR CREWSS! :D Im going to fetch Mr chan for sure :D He's been fetching me ups and downs since the day he knows how to drive. Thank you dear.

Nowadays people been asking me why am I such a fool to patch things back with ahem* (you know who) People just keep filling my head with doubts. I've been thinking alot lately too & my conclusion is everyone deserves a second chance. Everyone makes mistakes okay. I bet each one of you who filled my head with doubtful thoughts too have your own darkest secret & your most bewildered mistake. C'mon I aint that good okay. Noone in this world is perfect. People Im not trying to offend you. I know that you care for me & as a friend I appreciate it alot. But sometimes I just gotta follow my instinct. Hope you guys will understand. I make foolish mistakes too. So for us,Ill give it another try. At least he changed right & at least he's still the old him at heart & at least he's the one who brought back my old grin.

my baby,

Honestly Im kinda happy that we broke up. No offence,but because of that grueling stage that the both of us went through really changed our thinking alot. In a positive way lahh of course. Both of us are more mature now and we dont have to go through fights everyday && the best part is I dont have go to bed with tears. Now,I really do know how to appreciate us more compare to the old days. I always take things for guaranteed. Dear,thanks you for everything. I couldnt possibly ask for more from you. You've given me more than enough. I never knew that we actually get to revive our 4 years relationship. I love you,i mean it from the bottom of my heart.

ps,give & take.

XOXO,

Giselle (:

After all the happy days. Today finally I broke down and cry. I cant believe that Im crying so hardly right now. ): Im having my stupid pt2 tmrw && something really disturbs me and I have loss my focus on studying. Now all Im doing is staring at the comp,tears flowing down my cheek & thinking why did you lie to me? Its just a small matter & you wanna lie. I dont get it. Who am I to you? I feel like as tho Im a stranger to you. You cant share everything with me ): Should I ignore everything? Like what I always did in the past? I got a very strong feeling that the past will be repeated again and Ill be breaking down soon. Again. Thank you. Im speechless. I cant believe that everything is going to be over so soon. I hope it wont. Sighhhh* Your promises are not reliable still I choose to believe. Now I ended up like this is all because of my foolishness. Believing that everything you said is true. And now Im prepared to believe whatever you said,prepared to forgive you or maybe prepared to hear the word break up...

ps,what do you want from me?

XOXO,

Giselle ):

A Very Special Day Of A Friend That I Hold-Dearly

Was Cam-whoring Before Heading For Dancing Lesson :)
The Princess Of The Day :D

Today is a very special day to me! Today See Ying Bin will be turning 18. :) She's the one who kept on encourage me in everything I do. She always give good advices. She's the one who kept on encourage me to attend prom. I dont feel like going at the moment because due to some issues. && She's the one who kept giving me positive comment and giving me strength. It means a lot to me. Thanks babe. And if its not because of you I wont be winning the prom queen title. So thank you :) All the little things and single word that you said to me will stay in my heart wherever I go in this world. If I could wish for one very special thing for you,I'll wish for the smile on your face okay dear :D I want you to be happy spending every moment of your life. You can always come talk to me whenever you're facing any problems,promise I'll be there for you! You'll be forever my friend no matter where we go in this crazy world :) Last but not least,happy sweet 18th && I love you always.

ps,Im really glad that god allows our friendship to grow closer :)

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Broken Promise

You lied. Again. Im not mad with who you went with. Im mad because you lied to me. How do you expect me to trust you anymore. Why cant you just be honest with me? Im speechless. You broke my heart once again. Im sorry. I give up. It hurts me deeply because I trusted you so much and you ended up lying to me. Bet this is not the first time that you're lying already. You promised me that you'll never lie to me anymore. You broke your promise. Goodbye.

ps,it ends tonight.

XOXO,

Giselle:(

Broken Trail

Sitting alone in my room,

Tuning on the CD that you made specially for me as an anniversary gift two years back,

You were so special,unique by then..

But now all I can see a guy who doesnt care nor hold me tightly and never let me go anymore.

Reading through the notes that you left for me in the old days,

I felt so secure,so happy,your love once,

But now all I can feel is sorrow and pain,

I couldnt bare with the fact that you are no longer there for me anymore,

How am I supposed to love you when you are not even there.

Lying on my bed everynight wishing that all of these will be over soon,

But all I can do is to pretend,

Pretending that I am strong no matter there's a chaos in my mind,

Pretending and ignorance always has come to an end.

So here am I,

Eyes that fill with tears,

Broken heart that can never be mend,

A tired body who doesnt own a soul,

Mind that always cant get answers to all my questions...

Now another story,

Why did you do that to me?

You are another main reason that Im feeling down right now,

Moon will no longer shine,

Dawn that will no longer be awaken..

ps,everything doesnt feel right.

XOXO,

Giselle :(

I've tried

I'm feeling so hungover right now but still being able to blog. Not bad huh. What do you want from me? I know Im not good enough for you but cant you see Im trying? I've already changed okay,stop asking me to change anymore. I already dont know who the hell am I anymore,what else do you want? Why is everything not enough for you? I've changed already k,dont tell me you cant see the difference in the current me. Now you want me to change even more. I dont know babe. You are like taking my love for you for granted. Please dont do that okay cause it hurts more than anything in this world. The reason Im drinking right now is because of you. You are like 2 persons. You suddenly care and suddenly just throw me off the edge and dont bother to ask if Im okay or not. I apologized already,isnt that enough for you. Stop being so rude okay. Everyone got their own prides and feelings so do I. Take it as I beg you okay,stop treating me this way. Stop making me feel like you care then leave me alone just like that okay. What am I to you? Your toy? It hurts okay. Yes I love you very much doesnt mean you got the right to treat me anyway you want. Imagine Im doing this to you. Talking to you rudely,closing your calls,Slam the phone,asking you to fark off. How would you feel? Think about it okay. Im not trying to brag or anything alright,I just want you to know how I feel.

Goshh Im really feeling dizzy now. Guess I should call it a night. Good night everyone! I love you pangkor crews :D

ps,forcing myself to forget about everything that happened cause its pointless to have it staying in my mind :(

XOXO,

Giselle :(

Dec 31st- New Year Eve

Today organised a gathering for all the pangkor crews. Of course I did invite Brian and Jing Yi and Meng Kit and Xiao Teng. Went to midvalley with Jing Yi in the morning to pick up all the items that we need for the decoration. We're having candle light dinner by the way. This is my very first time decorating for a dinner thats why I need professional help from JingYi :) Thanks babe for willing to help me out. I really do appreciate it! The dinner was awesome. Too bad Jingyi, Brian,Meng Kit,Xiao Teng gotta left early. After dinner,the boys went for a walk to Kuchai to look for YauSeng. Its freaking far okay from my house to Kuchai. Mad fellas. LOL. The girls and Ah Mak sat down to chit chat and started taking pics. Semua haopos. Haha! Later on I asked my aunt if she's willing to go to Kuchai to fetch the boys back although they didnt ask me to. Pity them lah gotta walk so far. Haha! I followed my aunt to Kuchai to bring them back. Later on everyone decided to play truth or dare. Ziyan the hyper one,moved her ass right away when the music is on. Kevin did a little stripe show for everyone. LOL. Soon its going to be new year ,everyone went out to play with fire crackers. We lighted like more than 3 packs dragon eggs together each time we played. Haha! Then the whole thing will go on fire. The last one was the most chunted one,the boys lighted almost one whole box of the dragon eggs at one time. LOL. I had fun :) My mom was so cool that night,this is the freaking first time she allowed me to drink in the house,allowed me to throw dragon eggs under my neighbour's car,she didnt screw us when the fire crackers kena my dad's car,she helped Kahyee to lie to her father,she allowed everyone of us to sleep together,she frightened ziyan,she chatted with them till 3 in the morning,and told me that this is the kind of friends that I should hang out more often. LOL. Ohh she did ask me how come he has changed so much,he's like so rude nowadays. Gahh speak for him. Ishh. Watched Dance of the Dead,I finally realized that the hero is not actually sysnester gates =/ But he looks a lot like him okay. Ate ice cream 5 in the morning. Awesome,will do it more often. LOL. Then went to bed at 6 plus. Since Kevin and Ling slept on my bed already,couldnt bare to wake them up so the rest of us slept in my brother's room. I gotta slept on the floor with Jwing and AhMak. Lucky KahYee get to sleep on the bed with Xian Zhong. Almost lucky Yan slept on the fingers sofa. Haha! After lying down for some time, I couldnt stand already,went to sleep on my sister's bed in her room. Haha! I was waken up by Ziyan then went to my room and slept again. Was really tired okie. Then fetched everyone to school next morning. Gee,so many things were left at my house. Haha! It was an awesome night. Hope to do it with you guys soon! :D Im loving all the pangkor crews more and more! Went to Johor at 2. So random. LOL.

ps,Im happy for you :)

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 25th-A Story Part 2

''Ping,he already got a new lover..Never again will I trust anyone anymore. This is what I get whenever I trust someone. Never again will I fall for someone anymore cause I always fell for the wrong person. Shall work hard to move along with my life although it pains me deeply... Shouldnt have trusted him. Everything is just like a song. Here goes

Guy to the Girl - You Must Have Had A Broken Heart

Girl to the Guy - Outta Here

Guy to the Girl - This I Promise You

Girl to the Guy - Fallin For You (I guess)

Both - Body Language (Not really the body language okay)

Girl to the Guy- Last Christmas

Guy to the another Girl - To Be With You

Girl to the Guy - Almost Lover

Girl to herself - Over it & Move Along

ps,what a chirstmas & speechless.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 22nd-The Last Day At Pangkor

Goodbye Sand

Goodbye Blue Blue Sky

Goodbye Sea

Goodbye Birds

Goodbye Dead Corals

Goodbye Dead Starfishes

Goodbye Bicycles

Goodbye Vikri Staffs

Goodbye Beach

Goodbye Field

Goodbye Trees

Goodbye Pangkor Crews

Goodbye Pangkor =/

Hey thanks for everything alright. I had a blast at Pangkor. Cant wait to hang out with you guys soon! Thanks for taking care of me :) Sorry if I said or done something offensive. Not forgetting, I love you guys always! Thanks for leaving me sweet memories that I'll never forget for the rest of my life :)

The Pangkor Trip has officially ended but not the pangkor crews :D

ps,ended just like that. What if I said yes to your question?

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 21st-The Third Day At Pangkor

I never felt like this before. Once I opened up my eyes I get to see faces of my friends :D I was told that I yelled at my dearest Ziyan last night and the first thing I went to do in the morning is rush to room 14 and apologised to her. Her eyes burst into tears bet I've hurt her feelings =/ Gosh,I'm really sorry Yan. I'm such a jerk lah =/ Next time just leave me only lah k? Dont want to hurt your feelings anymore. Im sorry dear! I love you! Thanks for caring k. Today's breakfast is Shit. I've forgotten already! OOpsie! LOL. We went around Pangkor Island that day. It was fun. We went to several temples and tourist spots. After lunch we went back to our chalet. Everyone was at room 18 so I've decided to go over there and peek what are they doing after washing up. Gosh! They were all watching batman! Instead of joining them I've decided to walk over to CoralBay myself to look for my best hot buddy CHEN VE KENN! It was 2.30 in the noon and the sun was burning like fire. Haha! Couldnt believe that I actually walked from Vikri to CoralBay under such a hot weather. I can feel my skin is burning and of course my FATS! Haha! Luckily I stole Jwing's slippers if not I wonder h0w am I going to walk with my stupid sandals along the beach. After walking for like 20 minutes,I finally reached! I didnt realise that I passed by my classmates until someone yelled Sueping. Haha! It was Erika. They were having lunch at a seafood restaurant just next to CoralBay! Wow their meal was really awesome! Haha! Then I went upstairs to look for VeKenn with Te Cheng. Chen VeKenn,you owe me a big time. Haha! Because of you I m so tan now. See I love you so much! :D Hung out with them for a while then I've decided to go back because they are having plans at 4. I went for airhead thingy ride with the lovely couple. Bumped into them many times! Haha! Goshhh! I cant believe it the ride was so FUUNN! I swear I gotta bring Ziyan to try this ride. Soon I'm back. Went for canoe thingy. Gotta walk to all the end there to rent the canoe! I was the first one to reach. Im so proud of myself. LOL. Went on the canoe with Jwing. Kayaking was fun but it was really tiring. Then let Kevin they all on. The rest of us decided to walk to CoralBay to try out the airhead ride! I was the first one to reach Coral Bay! LOL. Gosh while walking to CoralBay,met this sick middle-aged guy who invite me for a swim with him. Gross. Threw him a disgust look and continued walking. Haha! Kahyee,Ziyan & I went on the ride together finally! Ziyan and Kahyee fell into the water during the ride. Then after that we were all too tired to walk back to Vikri so the brave chicken went to ask the guy if he's willing to get us back to Vikri with his speedboat and he totally agreed! YAY! 20 bucks for airhead-ride and speedboat ride was super worth! Went back to Vikri and straight went for a hot shower. After showering,you called. I sat on the bench,staring at blue sky,thinking what had go wrong between us,I just don't get it babe,I dont know,,all the yellings between us,we dont even know why we are fighting,we just dont want to let it go for nothing.. I can feel the tears touching my cheeks again. Sigh. What can I do to stop all these? Later on we went for dinner at Restaurant COCO and after dinner Yong Yeow accompanied me to CoralBay to look for my best buddy again. We drank more than half of his gold label then won his money and went back. LMAO. What a mean thing to do. Haha! I know I was about to get drunk while on the way back to Vikri but I thought I can take it. LOL. Who knows. I dont know what happened next until I opened up my eyes and you told me everything. Thanks for the wonderful night?

ps,will never forget.

XOXO,

Giselle :(