Wednesday, November 25, 2009



To my dearest special someone here,


The reason I am writing this post is because I know you've been feeling really down and unhappy recently therefore, this post is specially dedicated to you as I really care and love you. Even though we dont used to hang out as often as we used to anymore but no matter what, we would still be there for each other when one calls for help.


Right hun? (:


Well, remember those times when I broke down due to the same reason as you now? And you've been there for me? Through hours, minutes and seconds of talk on the phone together? (: Well, all those little things you've done for me, I truly appreciate it and this time, I would like to and willing to be here for you through all the bad times you're facing now.


Darling, lets face the fact now that this guy doesn't worth a feeling from you. I mean, you really do deserve someone much better. Someone who treats you well, care for your feelings and trust you. Please, you're with him more than years now and he still doesn't know who to trust better? That's a lie.


Who can be as patient as you when you're being treated this way and all you do is to cry it out and not say a word? Which girl can be as strong as you? Keeping this love and never throw it away and still continuing to trust him and believe in him? It can sound really stupid and good at the same time as you can actually do this.


But do you think all those tears you've cried worth it?


You and I know that he have changed into someone else. He's not like what he used to anymore. Someone who used to love you so deep that will never let you go? But anyway, everyone change, people change. And it only due to a better person or worst. And there's nothing I can say if you want to continue hurting yourself by waiting for him as it is your choice. We cannot decide anything for you but only to advice you.


But since your decision is to move on with your life then do so. Dont look back at the past anymore. Dont be sad over what happened but happy that it have happened because finally, you realized that someone you love did not appreciate every thing you've done for him. Why love someone who doesn't treat you equally?


We girls have a value in life and that doesn't mean those guys can treat us however they want to alright? If he's not the right one, why still stay? Isn't it? We deserve to be treated in a better way. Yes, relationships have their ups and downs but not over-boarded actions like this. Misunderstanding can occur but not by trusting another fully and doesn't giving you a chances to explain yourself..


No matter, just know that I'll be here for you. (: Remember that you're a really good friend and a good girlfriend, so, find someone else who's better. Like what my classmates always say the sea is big, since this fish isn't the right appetite anymore, throw it back to the sea!


Hun, I love you and seeing you hurt like this does not make me any happy. So, please stay strong and believe in yourself. Have a good rest and have a new kick as a start today. Work yourself up into someone who's stronger and not cry over such little things!


It is not the end of the world because you have lost him. Take it as an experience, an advantage for yourself in order to be stronger to face anything else that you may face in future. A stronger person inside and out and not let others take advantages of you. Alright? Believe in yourself, that is the most important thing in life. If you believe, anything can happen in life.


In conclusion, remember that when you feel empty and felt that the world is betraying you, think of the people you have who have made your life colorful and the bright future you'll achieve in future. People who believe in you and trust you for who you are, are the people who's truthful towards you. Alright?






No forgetting,
I love you! (:






Breaking Down Soon.

How am I supposed to change when something like this happened :/ Ziyannnnn,save me. I dont know what to do anymore. Do you know how does it feels like to be soo goddamn confused. I've got lied by you people again and again. How do you expect to trust one again. One is like my very good friend,then the another one is a guy who hurted me most,then the other one is the witness. I'm sorry to say this but I don't want to trust you anymore. I'm really sorry to say this but I think you're the one who told him craps about me. The story that you told me is so suspicious. You told me you went to the club with him only once yet people saw he always fetched you home. I treat you as one of my very good friend and is this how you treat me? I dont want to know anything already alright. Hope you know. I'm really sorry babe. Everyone is telling me different stories && I dont know who to trust. Im breaking down already. Im so lost. Can someone just tell me the truth. Spent the whole night thinking. I dont know... Sexyyy,save meeee! I dont want to stay in this kind of world anymoree. Get me outta here! =/ Need a shoulder to cry on soo much right now. The world is like throwing me off the edge right now. You guys broke my heart into million pieces and you guys left a deep scar in my heart. Wish someone would tell me I'm fine and my days will shine soon. Arghhh. I hate all of you who turn me into this.
ps,i need you guys so much right now zy & tpy :/
XOXO,
Giselle:/

Betrayed?

ADD-MATHS! I SCREWED UP MY ADD-MATHS PAPER 2!! ISHH! What can I do to change things? Arghhhh. 4 hours break with Ziyan. She knew something happened. She can see it from my face. What a nice friend :D I talked to SueLyann straight after my add-maths paper 1. I can't control my feelings anymore. Who the hell is Giselle? Who the hell is Sueping? After sitting in front of the mirror for one hour and looked into my own eyes,I thinked about all the evil thing that I've done. I don't even know who am I anymore. I want to be the old sueping that I used to be. She can be happy for no reason all the time. I want to find the old sueping again. I realised it's so hard to be happy nowadays. Sighh. I call myself a nasty bitch and a satanic girl now. Who am I? Anyone would just get me outta here and make me into the old sueping that everyone used to know once. Life is full of darkness and been betrayed again and again. This is life,I guess. I don't know who to trust anymore. Everyone is telling me different stories. I dont know. All I know is that I can't face the fact that the both are doing this shit to me. I trusted you babe. Sighh. I dont want to know anymore && I dont know how long I can stay like this. Everyone around me is like putting a mask on. Babe,why did you lie to me?? I dont know what are you up to,but I trusted you a lot okay. I dont know who's the real liar and who's telling the truth. I don't want to know anymore already okay. Enough is enough. Last but not least,are we friends or foe?

Went out to yum-cha with Goldie Fishy. Then called Kah Eng along. There's also these 2 guys who I dont know thier names. I thinked is Nigel and the other one is something kenn. Haha. We went to Island Cafe. I wanted to go to Bangsar but they complained that there're too many road blocks there on the way. So didnt get to go there. Sat down and listen to them chat for like more than an hour. I guess. It's fun to listen to guys chat. I mean like the way they talked is super funny. Haha! Then goldie brought me go longkai. Guess what. We stayed on the road for like almost 2 hours & we wanted to pee like hell. We saw an AHKUA! His/her denim mini is like super short. LOL. I had fun by the way :D Next time must bring me go drifting k? && people,always remember to pee before you long kai k? Cause you'll never know what might happen. X) Don't end up like me and goldie. Goldie,sowie for lying. It's for your own good kay. Haha! It's dangerous to go to the petrol station alone during midnight. Thanks for everything and it's nice seeing you.

ps,betrayed by the people that i loved :/ && good luck in your breakfast tmrw TPY! :D


XOXO,
Giselle :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I Just Wanna Be Happy

Today paper was moral. Not bad. I have to say. I'm so proud of myself,I didnt cheat. LOL. Unlike someone outta here. *ahem. Tomorrow paper is add.maths and I think i can commit suicide already. Supposed to have someone over here to teach me,but he couldnt make it. Couldnt blame him too cause it's not his fault. Sigh* I'm having a bad day too. I'm having add.maths tomorrow and I'm still not a little over that bastard when I saw him. I dont know why. Sigh. But he seems to be so happy without me. Ish. Trying my best to ignore him. Tamtam didnt get to tell teacher that her left boob's itchy. So it's a good thing you know. Haha! Bet that slut cheated again. Damn freaking unfair! Who cares. We people like us are not like her,we dont have to cheat (: SPM 5 more days to go! Then we can dance our ass off everynight and drink all night! Can't wait till then. I can't wait to go into college! Can party everynight! x) Go tune on I love college! I had that song in my the so call i-touch thing at my blog. LOL.

Now another story,I don't feel like going prom! I know it might sounds stupid but it's because of a guy. I bet my heart will crash and break into pieces if I'm going that night. I just can't do it. Maybe I'm not strong enough to face the fact that he's in love with someone else. Sighh. I dont know!! It's just so heartbreaking whenever I started thinking of you liking someone else. I know it's stupid and yea. Even myself know it is. Arghhhhhhhhhh. I dont know lah and I dont want to know anything anymore. All of these it's just too heartbreaking and I dont want to play a broken-hearted girl =/ Hope you'll get to notice me one day standing behind you all these while. Go listen to you belong with me and you'll know.

Sexy TPY,I'm sowie if I've done something wrong causing you wanting to die or I spoiled your mood. Cheer up =/ C.Megan & Giselle are facing the same problems together. Not exactly the same but almost alike lah. Sigh* Be strong kay? It hurts me to see the both of you in such bad mood and I can't really do anything bout it. Last but not least,C.Megan I love you babe & go make the first move before everything it's too late.

ps,everyone is having a bad day =/

XOXO,
Giselle :(

Saturday, November 21, 2009

So Long Straight Hair!


After having rebonded straight hair for so many friggin years. I've decided to curl my hair. And yes,here I am with my new curly hair. LOL. I admit that even myself prefer my old rebonded straight hair but who cares. Sometimes you just gotta try new things in your life. You'll never know if you never try. Life will be ordinary if you don't experience new things. && leading an ordinary life is a crime okay. So always make sure that your life is not ordinary and dead hell boring. Still can't believe that my rebonded straight hair is long gonee. Poff* and left with only curly hair. I kinda like it though although it ain't as nice as my straight hair, cause it kinda gives me a new image and enable me not to think about the past that often. :D Actually I wanted to cut short,something like rihanna in the umbrella's music video but nah. I got the hair doesn't mean I'll get the Rihanna's look right? LOL. That's what my dearest annice told me and I thinked she's super-duper right about it. Thank god I asked for her opinions first before I went to the saloon. That night I talked to Kaisheng too. Woah. It's been so long since we last talked. He's still the same,it's just that somewhere inside him became more mature unlike the old kiddo KS we used to know anymore. LMAO. Oh and Crystal got herself a new name,Megan. It suits her well. It sounds so sexy by the way. LOL. C.Megan petpet :D I would like to thank my ugly partner. Thanks for telling me that I should always think before I do anything. Time is not everything. So never ever rush into things. I'll always bear that in mind. Although we knew each other for not long,but I can see that you're truly a good friend. Hope things work out between you and you know who. LOL. It's late and I shall tuck into bed soon! Toodles!


Shall come and find you in LALA land now Mr.sexy TPY. LOL.


ps,bye bye straight hair ;)

XOXO,
Giselle :)



Life is not perfect,so deal with it.

Today is just another ordinary yet complicated day again. Like always. You called and I get so messed up again. Sigh. When can i get to overcome all my complicated feelings. If you still care or love me,why can't you just said so? Yet you gotta act as if you still care. Feeling so complicated and messed up. Do you know how does it feels like? Oh well,guess this is just life. Life is not perfect we just gotta deal with it. Decisions decisions. Decisions is a major part of everyone's life. We gotta decide in every single thing we do. & whenever we decide an answer,we can't change it. We can't reverse the past. That's the suckest thing of making decisions. We just gotta move on in every decisions that we decide. It pains,it hurts like hell,it makes you cry everynight,it makes you feel so dumb,it makes you feel so alone,it suffers but there's nothing we can do. The only thing we can do is put a big grin on our face and move on. Although everytime you get to see me with the big smile on my face,but do you know how does it feels like inside my heart? Nope. you don't. That's the main problem. sigh* Oh well,I shall cherish every moment of my life. If this is what god gave me then I shall appreciate what i have right now. I'm not going to be so foolish like how i used to and let things just slipped away easily. I'm swear on my life that I'm not going to let things like that happened again. Life is short and imperfect,just deal with it and appreciate what chu got right now. :D & you'll get to know how lucky and happy you are.

ps,i love you sexy C.MEGAN. x) will appreciate you till the day i die.

XOXO,
Giselle :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Feelin So Alive Again

He texted me today and told me that we're through. He doesn't want to talk to me anymore because some bastards told him shits about me. (FARK WHOEVER YOU ARE WHO TOLD HIM THAT I WAS DRUNK AT THE HOTEL,I WASNT EVEN DRUNK). Oh well,life goes on. Like always. Now I've finally got what I want,I dont have to stay hanging like how I used to anymore. It's consider a good thing for the both of us. It pains me,but still I've decided to carry with my life without you in it anymore. I did promise my dearest PetPet Crystal Chen not to keep in touch with him anymore because he's becoming an ASS & he's not worth it. My one and only vagina chen,I'm not going to break my promise :D Love me? LOL. Ohh,I might be having a burning ceremony at my place right after SPM. Will reconfirm with you guys again. So don't throw away those reference books that you hated most. Save it for the burning ceremony. 'He looked like some half-cooked potato.' nice description from Erika's bf. LMAO.

My dearest Sexy TPY,
Thank you for always being there whenever I'm feeling lost,complicated,sick,sad,happy,excited all the time. You helped me out a lot and I couldnt possibly ask for more from you. Thanks for always listening to my brags and my cries. You always made my day. Cheer up alright :D Don't try to think too much. Hmm,I dont know what to say. I just wanna thank you once again,and I promise that I'll always be there for you whenever you're in need. I promised:) Last but not least,you're a great guy and you deserve to be happy all the time alright :D Thousand of hugs for you.

Crystal : Thanks for pointing me the way out from this sucky world. I heart you!
Crush : I think I do have feelings for you and you're just so different compare to the others. I don't have the courage to tell you this =/

ps,loving my new life,cherish every moment.

XOXO,
Giselle:)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Popiah Day !


Today Ann and me went to Chicyan's place today. Wow! Veggies! We had tons of fun today. && i get to study too. LOL. We took a lot of retarded pics and plan to fill up our absolute retards album in Facebook. Oh well,chicyan was the main model among the 3 of us. Haha! I ate 4 meals at her house within 8 hours. And all meals involve POPIAH! James and Jun Yong came over for a while too,but they cant stay for long =/ These are only part of the pics that we took today,others are still with Ann. Ann looked so FRIGGIN HOTT! Ziyan looked so SEXAAY! Last but not least,this will be annice and my very first day of liking POPIAH! What a POPIAH-DAY!

ps, I'm sorry if I've been a bit too much about that post. I've deleted it. I'm sorry.
XOXO,
Giselle :D