A Very Special Day Of A Friend That I Hold-Dearly

Was Cam-whoring Before Heading For Dancing Lesson :)
The Princess Of The Day :D

Today is a very special day to me! Today See Ying Bin will be turning 18. :) She's the one who kept on encourage me in everything I do. She always give good advices. She's the one who kept on encourage me to attend prom. I dont feel like going at the moment because due to some issues. && She's the one who kept giving me positive comment and giving me strength. It means a lot to me. Thanks babe. And if its not because of you I wont be winning the prom queen title. So thank you :) All the little things and single word that you said to me will stay in my heart wherever I go in this world. If I could wish for one very special thing for you,I'll wish for the smile on your face okay dear :D I want you to be happy spending every moment of your life. You can always come talk to me whenever you're facing any problems,promise I'll be there for you! You'll be forever my friend no matter where we go in this crazy world :) Last but not least,happy sweet 18th && I love you always.

ps,Im really glad that god allows our friendship to grow closer :)

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Broken Promise

You lied. Again. Im not mad with who you went with. Im mad because you lied to me. How do you expect me to trust you anymore. Why cant you just be honest with me? Im speechless. You broke my heart once again. Im sorry. I give up. It hurts me deeply because I trusted you so much and you ended up lying to me. Bet this is not the first time that you're lying already. You promised me that you'll never lie to me anymore. You broke your promise. Goodbye.

ps,it ends tonight.

XOXO,

Giselle:(

Broken Trail

Sitting alone in my room,

Tuning on the CD that you made specially for me as an anniversary gift two years back,

You were so special,unique by then..

But now all I can see a guy who doesnt care nor hold me tightly and never let me go anymore.

Reading through the notes that you left for me in the old days,

I felt so secure,so happy,your love once,

But now all I can feel is sorrow and pain,

I couldnt bare with the fact that you are no longer there for me anymore,

How am I supposed to love you when you are not even there.

Lying on my bed everynight wishing that all of these will be over soon,

But all I can do is to pretend,

Pretending that I am strong no matter there's a chaos in my mind,

Pretending and ignorance always has come to an end.

So here am I,

Eyes that fill with tears,

Broken heart that can never be mend,

A tired body who doesnt own a soul,

Mind that always cant get answers to all my questions...

Now another story,

Why did you do that to me?

You are another main reason that Im feeling down right now,

Moon will no longer shine,

Dawn that will no longer be awaken..

ps,everything doesnt feel right.

XOXO,

Giselle :(

I've tried

I'm feeling so hungover right now but still being able to blog. Not bad huh. What do you want from me? I know Im not good enough for you but cant you see Im trying? I've already changed okay,stop asking me to change anymore. I already dont know who the hell am I anymore,what else do you want? Why is everything not enough for you? I've changed already k,dont tell me you cant see the difference in the current me. Now you want me to change even more. I dont know babe. You are like taking my love for you for granted. Please dont do that okay cause it hurts more than anything in this world. The reason Im drinking right now is because of you. You are like 2 persons. You suddenly care and suddenly just throw me off the edge and dont bother to ask if Im okay or not. I apologized already,isnt that enough for you. Stop being so rude okay. Everyone got their own prides and feelings so do I. Take it as I beg you okay,stop treating me this way. Stop making me feel like you care then leave me alone just like that okay. What am I to you? Your toy? It hurts okay. Yes I love you very much doesnt mean you got the right to treat me anyway you want. Imagine Im doing this to you. Talking to you rudely,closing your calls,Slam the phone,asking you to fark off. How would you feel? Think about it okay. Im not trying to brag or anything alright,I just want you to know how I feel.

Goshh Im really feeling dizzy now. Guess I should call it a night. Good night everyone! I love you pangkor crews :D

ps,forcing myself to forget about everything that happened cause its pointless to have it staying in my mind :(

XOXO,

Giselle :(

Dec 31st- New Year Eve

Today organised a gathering for all the pangkor crews. Of course I did invite Brian and Jing Yi and Meng Kit and Xiao Teng. Went to midvalley with Jing Yi in the morning to pick up all the items that we need for the decoration. We're having candle light dinner by the way. This is my very first time decorating for a dinner thats why I need professional help from JingYi :) Thanks babe for willing to help me out. I really do appreciate it! The dinner was awesome. Too bad Jingyi, Brian,Meng Kit,Xiao Teng gotta left early. After dinner,the boys went for a walk to Kuchai to look for YauSeng. Its freaking far okay from my house to Kuchai. Mad fellas. LOL. The girls and Ah Mak sat down to chit chat and started taking pics. Semua haopos. Haha! Later on I asked my aunt if she's willing to go to Kuchai to fetch the boys back although they didnt ask me to. Pity them lah gotta walk so far. Haha! I followed my aunt to Kuchai to bring them back. Later on everyone decided to play truth or dare. Ziyan the hyper one,moved her ass right away when the music is on. Kevin did a little stripe show for everyone. LOL. Soon its going to be new year ,everyone went out to play with fire crackers. We lighted like more than 3 packs dragon eggs together each time we played. Haha! Then the whole thing will go on fire. The last one was the most chunted one,the boys lighted almost one whole box of the dragon eggs at one time. LOL. I had fun :) My mom was so cool that night,this is the freaking first time she allowed me to drink in the house,allowed me to throw dragon eggs under my neighbour's car,she didnt screw us when the fire crackers kena my dad's car,she helped Kahyee to lie to her father,she allowed everyone of us to sleep together,she frightened ziyan,she chatted with them till 3 in the morning,and told me that this is the kind of friends that I should hang out more often. LOL. Ohh she did ask me how come he has changed so much,he's like so rude nowadays. Gahh speak for him. Ishh. Watched Dance of the Dead,I finally realized that the hero is not actually sysnester gates =/ But he looks a lot like him okay. Ate ice cream 5 in the morning. Awesome,will do it more often. LOL. Then went to bed at 6 plus. Since Kevin and Ling slept on my bed already,couldnt bare to wake them up so the rest of us slept in my brother's room. I gotta slept on the floor with Jwing and AhMak. Lucky KahYee get to sleep on the bed with Xian Zhong. Almost lucky Yan slept on the fingers sofa. Haha! After lying down for some time, I couldnt stand already,went to sleep on my sister's bed in her room. Haha! I was waken up by Ziyan then went to my room and slept again. Was really tired okie. Then fetched everyone to school next morning. Gee,so many things were left at my house. Haha! It was an awesome night. Hope to do it with you guys soon! :D Im loving all the pangkor crews more and more! Went to Johor at 2. So random. LOL.

ps,Im happy for you :)

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 25th-A Story Part 2

''Ping,he already got a new lover..Never again will I trust anyone anymore. This is what I get whenever I trust someone. Never again will I fall for someone anymore cause I always fell for the wrong person. Shall work hard to move along with my life although it pains me deeply... Shouldnt have trusted him. Everything is just like a song. Here goes

Guy to the Girl - You Must Have Had A Broken Heart

Girl to the Guy - Outta Here

Guy to the Girl - This I Promise You

Girl to the Guy - Fallin For You (I guess)

Both - Body Language (Not really the body language okay)

Girl to the Guy- Last Christmas

Guy to the another Girl - To Be With You

Girl to the Guy - Almost Lover

Girl to herself - Over it & Move Along

ps,what a chirstmas & speechless.

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 22nd-The Last Day At Pangkor

Goodbye Sand

Goodbye Blue Blue Sky

Goodbye Sea

Goodbye Birds

Goodbye Dead Corals

Goodbye Dead Starfishes

Goodbye Bicycles

Goodbye Vikri Staffs

Goodbye Beach

Goodbye Field

Goodbye Trees

Goodbye Pangkor Crews

Goodbye Pangkor =/

Hey thanks for everything alright. I had a blast at Pangkor. Cant wait to hang out with you guys soon! Thanks for taking care of me :) Sorry if I said or done something offensive. Not forgetting, I love you guys always! Thanks for leaving me sweet memories that I'll never forget for the rest of my life :)

The Pangkor Trip has officially ended but not the pangkor crews :D

ps,ended just like that. What if I said yes to your question?

XOXO,

Giselle :)

Dec 21st-The Third Day At Pangkor

I never felt like this before. Once I opened up my eyes I get to see faces of my friends :D I was told that I yelled at my dearest Ziyan last night and the first thing I went to do in the morning is rush to room 14 and apologised to her. Her eyes burst into tears bet I've hurt her feelings =/ Gosh,I'm really sorry Yan. I'm such a jerk lah =/ Next time just leave me only lah k? Dont want to hurt your feelings anymore. Im sorry dear! I love you! Thanks for caring k. Today's breakfast is Shit. I've forgotten already! OOpsie! LOL. We went around Pangkor Island that day. It was fun. We went to several temples and tourist spots. After lunch we went back to our chalet. Everyone was at room 18 so I've decided to go over there and peek what are they doing after washing up. Gosh! They were all watching batman! Instead of joining them I've decided to walk over to CoralBay myself to look for my best hot buddy CHEN VE KENN! It was 2.30 in the noon and the sun was burning like fire. Haha! Couldnt believe that I actually walked from Vikri to CoralBay under such a hot weather. I can feel my skin is burning and of course my FATS! Haha! Luckily I stole Jwing's slippers if not I wonder h0w am I going to walk with my stupid sandals along the beach. After walking for like 20 minutes,I finally reached! I didnt realise that I passed by my classmates until someone yelled Sueping. Haha! It was Erika. They were having lunch at a seafood restaurant just next to CoralBay! Wow their meal was really awesome! Haha! Then I went upstairs to look for VeKenn with Te Cheng. Chen VeKenn,you owe me a big time. Haha! Because of you I m so tan now. See I love you so much! :D Hung out with them for a while then I've decided to go back because they are having plans at 4. I went for airhead thingy ride with the lovely couple. Bumped into them many times! Haha! Goshhh! I cant believe it the ride was so FUUNN! I swear I gotta bring Ziyan to try this ride. Soon I'm back. Went for canoe thingy. Gotta walk to all the end there to rent the canoe! I was the first one to reach. Im so proud of myself. LOL. Went on the canoe with Jwing. Kayaking was fun but it was really tiring. Then let Kevin they all on. The rest of us decided to walk to CoralBay to try out the airhead ride! I was the first one to reach Coral Bay! LOL. Gosh while walking to CoralBay,met this sick middle-aged guy who invite me for a swim with him. Gross. Threw him a disgust look and continued walking. Haha! Kahyee,Ziyan & I went on the ride together finally! Ziyan and Kahyee fell into the water during the ride. Then after that we were all too tired to walk back to Vikri so the brave chicken went to ask the guy if he's willing to get us back to Vikri with his speedboat and he totally agreed! YAY! 20 bucks for airhead-ride and speedboat ride was super worth! Went back to Vikri and straight went for a hot shower. After showering,you called. I sat on the bench,staring at blue sky,thinking what had go wrong between us,I just don't get it babe,I dont know,,all the yellings between us,we dont even know why we are fighting,we just dont want to let it go for nothing.. I can feel the tears touching my cheeks again. Sigh. What can I do to stop all these? Later on we went for dinner at Restaurant COCO and after dinner Yong Yeow accompanied me to CoralBay to look for my best buddy again. We drank more than half of his gold label then won his money and went back. LMAO. What a mean thing to do. Haha! I know I was about to get drunk while on the way back to Vikri but I thought I can take it. LOL. Who knows. I dont know what happened next until I opened up my eyes and you told me everything. Thanks for the wonderful night?

ps,will never forget.

XOXO,

Giselle :(